2014 has come and gone, and I only have gratefulness in my heart. It’s not the easiest year, but it’s still one of the bests.

I started the year with more questions than answers. It was a tough start since my family was going through a difficult time after losing my grandfather before the New Year. It was followed by a series of missteps and misfortunes that trailed behind us until the end of the year.

I may be the youngest, but I’m from a family-centered clan. We bear each other’s worries, and I cannot, for the life of me, separate myself from the troubles my family is going through. Yet, I spent a hefty amount of time moping and losing more and more of my self-esteem in the process of  figuring out what’s in store for me in the future. Also, I realized that I want a life completely different from the life I’m living. Even now, I still don’t know how to get there without starving or disappointing everyone.

Thankfully, I approached the new year with higher spirits, but still terrified of the recent choices I made. The year wasn’t so bad, though. There were a lot of first times and I had more opportunity to travel more than ever.

After all the questions and worries that I go through on a daily basis, I still go to bed thankful and happy. I have so much to be grateful for that it’s impossible that life is horrible. Because really, there’s nothing more wonderful coming home to my own bed and knowing that there’s a place that will always make me feel I belong.

My heart is full of gratitude for such a wonderful 2014, and I can only pray that I still feel this way by the end of this year.
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